I thought about this for a little while and went pretty far afield before I had my next stopping point, thanks to the LMS observation about being wounded.

Grossly generalizing (and more than able to name some exceptions), I’ve tended to date women who are codependent and want to fix me. Generally, we break up when I refuse to be fixed. Again grossly generalizing, I’ve dated a few who expect me to fix them and we break up when I don’t/can’t do that.

Here’s the kicker: I will always be an alcoholic and therefore unlikely to be in any other kind of relationship and/or I am very likely to twist the relationship into one of the dependent/co type.

Also, I am unlikely to attract a woman not inclined towards chemical dependency or codependency, the former, if using, is off the boards and the latter, if practicing, doomed to failure based on past experience.

Is it better to have no relationship than a relationship of this kind?

Good question.

I don’t care how cold or dangerous, I’ve been in this house since Thursday and I’m going out. I don’t know what I’m going to do or where I’m going to go, but I have to get out or explode.

catch you on the flip flop

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