(Good God, do I sound like that? I sure hope not. If so, please tell me!)

I understand taking breaks from the dating world, tending to your solitude and retreating when you need to. That’s great, but removing yourself completely? Really? Why? Because you don’t want heartbreak – ever? Who does?

My Jay was wonderful and very special to me, but he could be a big asshole like anyone and readily admitted it. How he was “special” in my eyes is that he had enough self-awareness to admit when he did not know what he was doing. He knew his issues and was open, honest and human about the whole thing. That is what I continue to seek…perhaps I’m holding out for too much myself. I don’t know.

Eternally optimistic or delusional – you pick, but I think there are plenty of great men out there; belching, farting men who rock from time to time and are special enough to be loved greatly.

But that’s just me.