I’ve now put up 200 posts.

Think of it. I’ve posted 200 times.

Charles, Kat with a K’s brother, says the blog is all Kat, cat and pussy all the time. Pretty funny.

And a big “shout out” to the internet deprived, Luddite Pink Lady. She’s the latest to arrive at Blogblah!!!

Welcome, darlin’. I’ll dance with you anytime.

It’s spring, the moon is very large and bright and I was restless last night.

I went to: The Red Cup, Galileo’s, Isis, Rococo, Sober Grounds, VZDs and Flip’s.

I heard bluegrass, blues, jazz and rock’n’roll.

Saw folks I knew everywhere I went.

But whatever it was I was looking for, I didn’t find it.

I couldn’t stay in one place.

Everywhere I went, no matter how many people were there and how many of them I knew, I felt alienated and alone.

All those places are familiar to me, but they all felt a little uncomfortable and strange. I finally realized it wasn’t the places that felt strange, it was me that felt strange.

Meanwhile, although I was live and have a penis everywhere I went last night, I was on film and my penis was showing at the Erotic, Exotic film festival at IAO. The Oz and Debster went to see the premier of Oz’s clip starring your faithful blogger and the lovely Amanda Joy. Ralph P also showed his film of 50s pinup photos in an erotic montage.

Maybe that had something to do with the strangeness factor.

FULL FRONTAL NUDITY.

LIVE ON SCREEN!

SEE JOHN NAKED.

AGAIN.

SHOWS NIGHTLY.

Get over it, Oklahoma City.

The way I feel this morning (and who knows how long this will last) is that I’m finally at the place where clubbing on the weekends is as boring as the television I used to watch. Time to give it up and find something else better to do.

What do you think? How about handyman John? Maybe buy a few power tools and go to work on my house. Do a little painting here and some floor work there. Maybe change out some of the antiquated light switches and fixtures. Sand and paint the ugly and depressingly dark cabinets in the kitchen. Maybe do a little landscaping, take out the dead stuff and clean up the beds and water the yard.

Hey, it COULD happen!

Maybe I could just do some of the things I already have on the plate: finish the novel and do some watercolor and sumii.

Get back to cooking and fix some meals here at the house.

I did do one thing that felt satisfying yesterday. I worked on cleaning up the Miata. The trunk was whack since I had a flat and put on the tiny tire. All that stuff was just thrown back in the trunk and I couldn’t fit anything in that smallish space. So, I washed the car and vacuumed it out and re-did the trunk. I even fit the tonneau top over the ragtop. Just those minor changes made the car look a lot better. It passed 90,000 on the odometer this week and it’s time to take it in for a major workover, including a new timing belt. I really can’t afford that this month because the tag has to be renewed this month as well. I’ve been thinking about trading it in, but my “in” with car dealerships, Dayna, says to drive the sumbitch until the fenders fall off or the repair costs equal a car payment averaged over a year. It’s 10 years old this fall and maybe it’ll be a “classic”. Hey, it COULD happen!

Anybody else notice that all the trees are in bloom? Redbuds, dogwood, mock pears, lotsa stuff. It’s pretty but it also messes with my allergies. Enjoy it now, folks, the drought is killing everything and it may not last.

The Gary calls to note that the number of billionaires in america has doubled under the Bush Administration. With only a couple hundred million inheritance, you can graduate into the real money category as long as the tax the poor bribe the rich Bush administration is in power. Please see “Billionaires for Bush” site at right.

Like the late Ev Dirkson once said: a billion here a billion there, pretty soon it adds up to real money.

Peace! Out!

blogging is such a self absorbed activity…

I sat for Maybree Ormes last night. She’s in town from Chico, CA, doing a project in which she’s painting 100 portraits. It’s just my face from forehead to chin, no ears or hair. She described a portrait as being a painting of a face in which the mouth is wrong. That’s really funny to me. We had a good time and she’s a good companion and conversationalist. I’m glad she’s on Paseo and I’m grateful to John Belt for giving her some space in Case Rosa.

Being in Casa Rosa again reminded me of MB and made me miss her more than usual. I couldn’t stop myself from peeking into her old studio and feeling a little sad seeing it empty when once it had been so full and lively a place with all her fabrics and colors and textures strewn about and carefully stored. Now, it’s just one empty room after another. No music, no sewing machine, no bustling about.

I have pictures of my grandson cavorting on the deck around the koi pond and walking around that converted swimming pool also made me a little nostalgic.

Some of you know that Bookemdano had a family crisis yesterday that turned out better than any of us expected. I found I couldn’t work and went home and got on my knees and prayed for a couple of hours. I’m quite sure that’s why things turned out so well. It’s my own particular hard wired straight connection with God that makes the world go ’round, as all of you know. Maybe not. I’m grateful in all events.

Speaking of John Belt, here it is the weekend again and I’ve not blogged about Joy Reed’s show last weekend. I absolutely LOVED the work done by my friend Eliz. Brown. Very textural, brightly colored and satisfying, all as a work of art should be in my humble opinion. I can’t say enough good things about what Joy Reed is doing at her gallery. She has very nice works by a variety of artists and her openings are class acts every time. There were also pieces by some familiar artists that I very much liked including some larger pieces by Michi Susan and a gorgeous portrait called “Remembering Big Horn” by Mike Larson.

Last weekend was also an opening by a new art space, Blue Moon, with Randy Clemons on Dobro and Paul Wingo’s watercolors. Have no doubt that Randy and Tara F. are onto something with Blue Moon, especially with Amanda Joy and Christin as assistants. It was exciting to be there at the start of something I think will be really big in a very short time.

I also want to give props to Shy Oren who plays jazz Thursday nights at Rococo and will be playing with Bat-Or tonight at VZDs. What a wonderful bassist he is!!! I don’t want to let him go back to Israel, I want him to stay here for my personal entertainment.

Speaking of jazz musicians, seems like I saw the Ills and haven’t blogged about them, but their atomic jazz at Galileo’s was a very big hit with me. They are really good musicians and I really like their music. Once I picked up on what they were doing, I’ve liked them better and better each time I’ve heard them. Along those same lines, I sat for quite a while with my hero, Michael R. Mutt, on Tuesday night listening to a Japanese jazz guitarist who was technically perfect and played very mellow music along with a bass player. I’m making a guess that his name is something like “Iagashi”.

I know I’ve left you guys hanging on my Tail of Conquest, but don’t worry, I’ll get back to it this weekend. Next installment: Sinatra finds out that trees can be climbed easier than they can be unclimbed. As I’m writing this story, I sort of realize that my attitude towards God and Sinatra’s attitude toward me are eerily similar. I may just be projecting since I’m anthropomorphizing the hell out of the cat.

Paseo dinner and movie night last Wednesday was fun, albeit a small gathering. Six of us ate at Pepperoni Grill and the discussions was swell, if truncated on my part by the addictive necessity that I will go outside to smoke. After dinner, only four of us gathered at my house to see “Bonnie and Clyde”, and we all agreed it held up quite well and was a solid classic film. “We rob banks” is my motto for this week .

I’m not blogging much these days about politics because so much of it is so discouraging: we’re violating civil rights at home and even China complains about our human rights violations and torture abroad; the Patriot Act has been renewed and Tom Delay was re-nominated by a big majority in his home district in Houston. The polls say Bush is at a low point in popularity and that sounds good, but as long as Congress is so strongly GOP, that won’t help since he’s not up for election. We are approaching the anniversary of the start of the Iraq invasion and I watch helplessly as that country tears itself apart under our tutelege. So sad.

Back to work. TTFN

The Times of London; March 08, 2006

Enjoy that next cup of coffee: it may be your last
By Sam Lister

Research suggests that carrying a particular gene prevents some people from processing caffeine quickly and makes them more vulnerable to heart attacks

COFFEE drinkers who have more than three cups a day could significantly increase their chances of suffering a heart attack.

Here’s the link to the whole story.

Times Online

I am SOOOO dead.

From Forbes online 07March06
By Tim Harford
Harford, a Financial Times columnist, is the author of The Undercover Economist.

“The hippies,” claimed economist Andrew Oswald recently, “are having their quiet revenge.” Oswald, a professor at Warwick University in England, is one of a growing number of economists fascinated by the question of what makes us happy. In a recent public lecture he announced, “Once a country has filled its larders, there is no point in that nation becoming richer.”

That, at least, should bring a smile to a few faces. Economists have suddenly realized that money can’t buy you happiness? This is like the squarest kid at school suddenly discovering beer, girls and music in his 30s. The rest of the world had worked it out already.

One of the things that excite economists like Oswald is the ability to compare data on wealth, education and marital status with the results of happiness surveys. In these surveys, people are asked such questions as “Taking all things together, would you say you are very happy, quite happy, not very happy, not at all happy?” Economists have been trying to make sense of the results across individuals, across countries and across the years.

The headline: Once a country gets fairly rich (though much poorer than the United States), further economic growth does not seem to make its citizens any happier.

So, money does not buy happiness. Or does it? “In every society, at any point in time, richer people are happier,” points out Will Wilkinson, a policy analyst at the Cato Institute in Washington, D.C., who runs a blog (The Fly Bottle) on happiness research and public policy. “But that in itself doesn’t tell you much about the relationship between money and happiness.”

Richer people, after all, tend to have high-status jobs. They tend to have more control over their lives at work — why pay someone six figures if you’re not going to ask her to use her own judgment? They also have higher expectations and will be comparing themselves to wealthier people. It’s hard to say what is really driving the results: money, status or expectations.

Perhaps each society’s richer people are also happier because happiness comes not from absolute wealth but from relative wealth — recall H.L. Mencken’s quip that “a wealthy man is one who earns $100 a year more than his wife’s sister’s husband.”

A more skeptical view is that, while it means something to compare my happiness with that of the guy asking me for change on the street, it means nothing to compare my feelings today to those of my grandfather in 1950 — or those of a Portuguese shopkeeper or a Japanese salaryman.

Wilkinson and economists like Oswald and his compatriot, Lord Richard Layard, are thinking about the policy implications of happiness research. My own interest is a little different: Can the new breed of happiness economists offer us any tips for happier living?

Much of the advice is pretty slippery. For instance, married people are much happier than single people. So perhaps you should get married? (Even better if your fiancée’s sister’s husband is unemployed.)

Not so fast. More-sophisticated surveys show that the causation runs both ways: Happy people tend to find spouses, while those suffering from depression don’t find it so easy. And, not surprisingly, some people do brilliantly out of marriage, and others are utterly miserable. As an economist, I’m afraid I have no idea whether you should propose to that cute girl you’ve been seeing. (You may or may not take comfort in Oswald’s finding that you can always get out of marriage: People are happier immediately after a divorce than immediately before.)

Oswald also suggests self-employment, if you can pull it off without losing out financially. “Everything associated with self-employment — independence, autonomy — is also associated with being happy.”

Both Oswald and Richard Layard argue that relationships are more important than money — and that includes professional relationships. “I’ve come to believe in the old-fashioned view that one should be tender in one’s dealings with colleagues,” Lord Layard said. And what else? “Think about what you have rather than what you don’t have, both materially and in your relationships and your personal strengths. To use the language of economics, don’t try to rectify things that aren’t your comparative advantage.”

This is spiritual thinking from an economist, but Oswald goes one better. If you’re depressed, why not just wait? “There’s a kind of J-curve describing happiness over time. Your late 30s are the most unhappy period of your life, but then the older you get the happier you are. Life really does begin again at 40.”

I think the most useful research, though, is by an honorary economist: Danny Kahneman, the only psychologist ever to win the Nobel Prize in economics. He asked nearly 1,000 working women in Texas to reflect on their previous day, list the different episodes in it, what they were doing and how they were feeling.

Some results are predictable enough: Work is miserable, and commuting is worse. Others are not so obvious. For instance, praying is fun, but looking after the kids is not. Spending time with your friends is one of the most enjoyable things you can do, but spending time with your spouse is merely OK. In fact, parents or other relatives turn out to make more enjoyable company than the supposed love of your life.

What is perfectly clear, though, is that socializing with anyone except your boss makes you feel good. Sex is best of all. This is handy advice at last. But what if you are having sex with your boss? Whereof economists cannot speak, we must remain silent.

My faithful servant has been dutiful this morning. I have been fed and given fresh water. My kitty litter has been cleaned. Although I had to chide him for being such a slowfoot, my milk treat was placed in the sacred blue saucer.

To reward my slave, I have jumped onto his boney lap and allowed him to pet my fabulous furry face and stroke my back and belly. The servant, cursed with a barren and wrinkled face, wholly without whiskers as a sign of his insignificance and lower form status, covets my face and fur. How can I blame him?

I sniff his blue cup of hot liquid and watch his inferior paws, clawless and misshapen things, dance on the folding machine on his table.

He stops and strokes my back from the top of my skull to the tip of my tail. I allow this. It is what he lives for.

It is not what I live for.

I live to conquer.

I will go onto my game preserve and fulfill my destiny.

My servant whines and brays, but I am adamant: Open the door, slave!

I am drawn to the earthy smells underfoot, the good odor of my own domain.

The tallest tree in the universe is outside my glass doors.

I gaze at it and listen to its fluttering leaves call to me.

The tree and its leaves mock me.

I will conquer them.

I will bite the leaves.

First, I will enslave and eat their youngling at the foot of the tree.

Inferior beings, trees. They cannot run, they cannot pounce, they have no servants and they are not soft and furry.

They are meant to be conquered.

There is the first basecamp.

A black and pourous mountain of rock beside the tree and next to the impenetrable doors that give servants access to my game preserve.

I am the King Kong behind the great wall humans have erected in reverence to my powers.

I easily leap to its summit and observe the obedience of all that I survey.

Someday, I shall punish the flying things for refusing to come play with me.

Their doom is at hand.

There’s one now!

(sotto voce) If I remain very still, perhaps it will come close enough for me to pounce!

It’s back is turned.

I shall advance to the flat, white stone pathway.

I am frozen in midstride. Invisible in my unpreturbable stillness.

I see my chance and I dart forward at the highest speed attainable on the planet.

Coward!

Upstart!

What’s this? A vine?

I meant to come over here and inspect the vines.

The flying thing did NOT make a fool of me.

The flying thing did NOT make me leave my base camp.

I meant to come over here and inspect the vines all along.

The flying thing means NOTHING to me.

NOTHING.

It’s the vine that’s interesting.

I always intended to come over here and practice my pounce on the small bit of paper caught in the vine.

See, watch this pounce.

POUNCE!!!

I might have done that to the flying thing at any time I wanted.

Hey! What’s this?!? The monkey grass is waving at me. A crowd of them lined up for my royal review!

I shall grant them their wish.

I shall walk over to them, sniff them, bite off the tip of one of the leaves and parade my magnificant self before them.

My adoring subjects, waving me onward to victory and immortality.

It is good to be the master.

TO BE CONTINUED

Sinatra stayed out all night on Fat Tuesday and I’m not sure what all happened but his drug pusher showed up Wednesday night with a new catnip mouse. AND his junkie source is a blonde babe.

Which means, dear readers, that my cat had a better Mardi Gras than I did.

Now, he just sort of hangs out listening to the stereo play Led Zep II and whenever I ask him if he wants to go do something, he just says “Yo Yo Yo, dude”.

Or “Phat!”

I’ve tried to tell him that’s so last year, so old school and not at all hip.

He’s not listening.

Today, there are three female cats hanging around my back yard and every once in a while, he goes out, talks to them, has a little spat, and comes back inside with another gold chain around his neck.

What’s that about?

And just try to tell him the broad brimmed hat with a feather in it is declasse and he just shows new gold fangs. It’s his “gangsta grill”, he says. I’m really confused about some of this stuff.

I mean, you take them in, you feed and pet them, you buy them a new kitty litter box, you try to instill some FREAKIN’ VALUES and what happens? They’re alla time asking you the spread on the Knicks game. I answered “butter?” and he just looked at me. I tried “jam?” and he gave me the most disgusted look. It was all the spreads I could think of.

He used to be content with a spot on the carpet next to the heater vent. Now, he wants in the middle of the bed, which is one thing, AND UNDER THE COVERS!!! I’m not having it.

He’s constantly in the back of my closet. I think he’s trying to saw off the barrel of my shotgun. There’s a lot of noises I can’t otherwise explain.

I even tried to tell him he’s mostly white except for his ears, tail and mask. That got him going . Something about a “single drop of black blood” and all us southern honkey racist oppressors.

Next thing I know, he’s got a pair of my best sunglasses and IT’S THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

gotta go now. something about how he wants me to pay him for rent on his crib. Crib? He doesn’t have a crib. He sleeps on my bed. Oh, well. Talk to you later.

mardi gras

carnival

fat tuesday

I went to parties, bars and restaurants and didn’t get home until after midnight.

Didn’t see a single flashed breast.

Nor a pair of them, for that matter.

I went to a Fat Tuesday brunch on the invitation of privacy shattered Sharon. It seemed like a wonderful gathering and there were lots of people and good food there. Perfectly lovely time. That was the problem. It was lovely. By which, of course, I mean that no one got good and drunk and rowdy and started taking off their top.

So it went all day long. I went many various places and saw and spoke to a wide variety of lovely women, many of whom I absolutely adore and think the world of them. Not a one of them was rowdy or drunk and MORE TO THE POINT, not a single one of them would show me their breasts, even when I offered the obligatory beads.

Not even the ordinarily party hearty types. Tina and Sandy were bartending on the Paseo last night and they’ve become old married women and there wasn’t a breast in sight. Not in my sight in all events.

On the up side of mardi gras yesterday, I also wasn’t around anyone puking pink hurricane into a gutter and down the front of their not-as-clever-as-they-think carnival tee shirt.

I did see a few of the faithful with ash on their forehead this morning, however.

Since I have to grow old, why oh why do I seem to have to do so gracefully? Dammit.

Chocolate Does a Man’s Heart Good
02.27.06, 12:00 AM ET

MONDAY, Feb. 27 (HealthDay News) — Chocolate lovers, take heart: Dutch research suggests that eating or drinking cocoa appears to lower blood pressure and even reduce the death risks for older men.

Since the 1700s, cocoa has been associated with healthy hearts, but only recently has scientific evidence backed up these claims, according to a new report in the Feb. 27 issue of the Archives of Internal Medicine.

According to the study, cocoa contains flavan-3-ols, which have been linked to lower blood pressure and improved function of the cells lining the blood vessels.

In their study, researchers led by Brian Buijsse, of the National Institute for Public Health and the Environment, in Bilthoven, examined links between cocoa and cardiovascular health in 470 men aged 65 to 84 years. The men had physical examinations and were interviewed about their diet at the start of the study in 1985 and then again in 1990 and 1995.

The researchers found that over a 15-year period, men who ate cocoa — including chocolate — regularly had significantly lower blood pressure compared with those who didn’t.

The sweet treat might even help ward off death. The researchers reported that 314 men died over the course of the study, with 152 of those deaths blamed on heart disease. Men who consumed the highest amount of cocoa were half as likely to die from cardiovascular disease, compared to men who ate little or no cocoa, the team found. In addition, men who ate the most cocoa were less likely to die from any causes.

For these men, the risk remained low even after taking into account other factors, such as weight, smoking, physical activity, calorie intake and drinking alcohol, the researchers found.

The researchers believe that the lowered death risk didn’t stem so much from lowered blood pressure, as from other heart-healthy benefits linked to flavan-3-ols. And since cocoa is rich in antioxidants, it may also protect against other diseases linked to oxidative stress, such as chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, and certain types of cancer, the researchers speculated.

One expert said the study helps confirm the use of cocoa as part of a healthful diet.

“Cocoa is the most concentrated source of bioflavonoid antioxidants readily available in our diets,” said Dr. David L. Katz, an associate professor of public health, and director of the Prevention Research Center at Yale University School of Medicine.

“An accumulating body of evidence suggests that this translates into health benefits for those who consume cocoa or dark chocolate with a cocoa content of 60 percent or more. Benefits have been seen in endothelial function, a measure of blood vessel health, blood pressure, insulin levels, and serum lipids,” added Katz, author of The Flavor Point Diet.

The evidence is now very consistent that cocoa has health-promoting effects, Katz said.

“However, it is almost certainly dose-dependent,” he added, cautioning that there’s a calorie-rich downside to excessive cocoa consumption. “Cocoa comes in foods that tend to be energy-dense, and the harm of excess calories could readily offset the benefit of antioxidants.”

And he stressed that cocoa’s heart-healthy benefits only come from bittersweet dark chocolate and in concentrated cocoa beverages, which contain an effective dose of antioxidants, along with magnesium, arginine and fiber.

“This is not the case for milk chocolate, which contains potentially harmful saturated fats, or candy bars that dilute cocoa with a long list of other ingredients,” Katz said.

It’s Monday morning and I seem to have lived through the wierdness vortex, mostly by just staying indoors all day Sunday.

The top goes down on the Miata today, so I’ve got that going for me.

I got so much done at home this weekend by the simple expedient of just being at the house that I’m all fired up for work this week.

Good thing, too, since I’m dead broke and MUST bill some time in order not to starve to death. LOL

I got a lesson in the written word last night.

I’m so proud of my writing and I think I express myself so much better in writing than I do verbally. I rely on this ability to be clear and precise with words. Except, when it fails, it fails big time.

I wrote a letter to someone I care about. I tried to tell them how much I really really care and that I would always care, no matter what.

What they READ, however, was: You’re OK, but leave me alone from now on.

How did that get so fugazi?

I’ve been told in the past that my emails are harsh and unforgiving and punishing. Each time, I resolve to work harder to say exactly what I mean and leave no room for doubt about my position, which is almost never intended to hurt unnecessarily. I don’t ever want to be unkind. Mostly, my motives are pretty pure and my intentions are benign.

It just doesn’t seem to always come out that way.

I know for a fact that I’ve faced the same thing in this blog.

Sometimes, the confusion over what I meant and wrote isn’t my fault. One person mentioned in my blog just flat made up something hurtful as my words. When we went back to the text, the words imagined weren’t there. Nevertheless, the reader found the “tone” hurtful and harsh. I wonder what there is about how I express myself that gets that reaction. I mean I understand how that happens when I’m TRYING to be mean. That happens sometimes in my profession. But, when I want to be understanding and comforting and what is read is hurtful and harmful?

Part of the problem must be in the tonelessness of the written word. A big part of my verbal communication has an ironic tone in it that can’t be expressed in writing. However, as I write, I hear the emphasis on one or another syllable and it makes perfect sense to me. In black and white it can be a very different thing.

So, here’s the deal. When you read what I write, try to remember that I’m a mostly genial guy and don’t really harbor grudges or angry thoughts about much of anyone. Those people I have a problem with can generally tell because there’s no mistake or judgment to make about my intention to give them a piece of my mind. The vast majority of the time, I’m just making an observaton or a joke or don’t care enough to skewer, only to cheep cheep cheep my birdlike protest at the nature of the universe.

Unless you are George Bush, Ann Coulter, Dick Cheney or Don Rumsfeld, you are very likely off the hook with me and I probably either really like you or at least like you enough to tolerate your flaws since I need for you to tolerate mine.

Don’t just sit and stew and be offended by something I’ve written. Come ask me. It may be I was trying to tell you how much I love you and it just came out wrong.

Gotta go. It may get up to 80 degrees this week and I’m going to enjoy the hell out of it and I’m going to start by putting the top down on the car.

C U later.