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Dear Squirrels

eye c u twitchn n tha woody/spikey/tall thing outside.

u chase each otha cuz u wants me to b chazn you.

u taunt me.

now tuxedo is here, not as good a cat as me, n he gets the fun.

eye will register an official protest with Godjhon.

jhon sez tuxedo, the pine, the squirrels and ME(?) are all one thing.

2 him, maybe. 

not to the Imperium ex Sinatra, scourge of small fluttery things and killer of furry things. 

I know jhon just doesn’t want to open the door.

I will register another official complaint about the imperfection of the universe jhon created.

His Imperial Highness, Sinatra I. 

Paseo Moments

Sitting next to MCARP at Sauced!, our mouths agape as several (rather lovely young) women at our table passed around a turkey leg, each in turn tearing off huge and vicious bites, whilst one of them repeated “stabbed 14 times!” many more times than 14.

Giving an enthusiastic hug/greeting to a woman I’d once dated briefly, only to be introduced to her husband of 3 weeks and hastening to leave as he began pissing on all the corners of the yard.

Walking through the crowd like a politician on the 4th of July, slapping backs and kissing babies.  This is the world’s largest small town, right Oz?

Enduring Matt Walsh’s interminable futzing with the sound system and complaints about his mic…  but, when the boy kicked it…  Hep cats, that white boy wailed out some blues that made old men jump up and boogie…  Tall Ed chatted up a young’un with bright headlights and a swing that should come with a porch… Pinky … little kids dancing … Mattie at Sauced! with his face painted to match his multi-colored hair…Della, my Della, a rose for your 21 years and pierced lip…Cindy, did your Mom just feel me up?…

A tall thin blonde introduced me to Dane and Issac at Isis, but all I wanted to do was kiss her.  What’s a boy to do?  I went and spoke to Tina and received a johnlong, went to the bathroom and went on my way.  Now I regret not hauling off and doing the deed, but the moment’s passed.  I hate that.  I hate it when you realize you just flat chickened out and that’s all there is to it and no damn do-overs.  It wouldn’t change anything.  I  just wish I’d given in to impulse.  Just this once.  Now, I’ll be all awkward about it and I’ll have to just get over myself.  Meanwhile, she very darn likely never gave it a second thought and when I’m all awkward about it and trying to get over myself, she’ll be thinking, quite rightly, “I wonder why he’s acting so … wierd?”.  Sorry.  I know I’m so completely and terminally unique that I’m the only person in the world who has ever experienced anything like this, the constant internal dialogue in which I tell myself in my best control-issue, micromanaging way what a complete fuckup I am and how I don’t deserve anything but the complete and total isolation all of humanity wishes I would achieve as quickly as possible, and certainly not anything like human affection and, gulp, approval. 

guess that’s why I blog, huh?  it’s kind of like talking to yourself where others can listen in.

 

 

 

Dear Robin,

eye also think jhon should write more except not so much bout politics.  Maybe more bout how wonderful cats be.

Sinatra Johnscat

 P.S.

Are you the one who sits on the fence in backyard?  I would like to meet you soon.  I am the cat in the window.

Sinatra

blog blah

I’m not dating anyone.  I’m not sleeping with anyone.  I’m not looking for someone to date or sleep with.  Live vicariously through someone else because I’ve entered the “I really just don’t care” category.  No grand scheme or statement, I’ve just got other things on my mind.

I go to work, i come home and either work on the kitchen or yard and when I get a little space, I’m writing or spending time with my sister and her family.

No cases on my desk at work are particularly noteworthy nor have I done anything particularly fun or repellant lately.

I guess I could tell you for the zillionth time that I hate Bush, but why?  You know it or don’t care.

I have not seen a movie, read a book or listened to any music that is either so good or so bad that it prompts me to comment.

I’m blah about blogging.  Thinking about taking the summer off just to rejuice the batteries.  My daughter and grandkids are coming to town, followed by my son, followed by another sister. That takes me through mid summer.  I hope to get out of town during the heat of the summer after all the family is through visiting. 

My prayers and thoughts are with The Gary.

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Sleepless

Tired and still awake at 2 a.m., listening to Charlie Parker.  I probably only had about fitty cupsa coffee today and a couple of six glasses of tea.  Think that has anything to do with it?  Don’t much care why right now because I’m too busy experiencing the discomfort for post mortems to appeal to me.  This blows.

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Mission Accomplished

A look back at this week in history:

By Elisabeth Bumiller

WASHINGTON, May 1 — President Bush’s made-for-television address tonight on the carrier Abraham Lincoln was a powerful, Reaganesque finale to a six-week war. But beneath the golden images of a president steaming home with his troops toward the California coast lay the cold political and military realities that drove Mr. Bush’s advisers to create the moment.

The president declared an end to major combat operations, White House, Pentagon and State Department officials said, for three crucial reasons: to signify the shift of American soldiers from the role of conquerors to police, to open the way for aid from countries that refused to help militarily and — above all — to signal to voters that Mr. Bush is shifting his focus from Baghdad to concerns at home….

”This is the formalization that tells everybody we’re not engaged in combat anymore, we’re prepared for getting out,” a senior administration official said….

By Michael R. Gordon and Eric Schmitt

BAGHDAD, May 2 — The Bush administration is planning to withdraw most United States combat forces from Iraq over the next several months and wants to shrink the American military presence to less than two divisions by the fall, senior allied officials said today.

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Blogging about not blogging

I was  going to blog today, then I found out that life has no meaning or purpose.

So, why bother?

I’m not so sure that we have no meaning or purpose other than what we bring to the table ourselves.

I think it may be that we have meaning and purpose, it’s just that we don’t like it and don’t accept it.

I mean, what would happen if you found out that your purpose in life was to take care of a certain blue eyed cat named Sinatra.  That’s it.  That’s why you are here.  No grand scheme and no meta-importance, just a small thing.  I think that is what we are really afraid to discover and, so, reject all meaning and purpose.

I have sometimes thought my only meaning and purpose was to provide a little DNA to a couple of human children with transformative powers and that I’d accomplished that and there was nothing worthwhile left to do.  Later, I thought that the example of my sobriety brought others into sobriety and that maybe in doing so I was accomplishing some other meaning and purpose in my own life. 

I long ago gave up the idea of myself as the indispensible man, Ozimandius and Ubermensch.  My life is unlikely to be enshrined in a mural, my words won’t be etched in stone.  Might I not still have some smaller purpose, some less grand meaning?

Maybe something a little better than cat owner, however, if you don’t mind.

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I'm speechless … well, almost

You must watch this videoclip of Sen. Durbin on the U.S. Senate floor.  I’m dumbfounded.

Oh, and just by the way, not a big deal, but ANOTHER high official, this time the deputy chief of staff of the investigative unit in charge of the Abramhoff investigation, resigned in disgrace because he came under investigation for his ties to Kevin Ring, a lobbyist and legislative aide connected to, wait for it … the Abramhoff bribery scandal.  Not only are they corrupt, but they have no shame. The resignation was actually effective April 6, but wasn’t announced until Friday.  Now what has happened since April 6?  What was going on at that time?  My, could it have been the F’ING AL “FREDO” GONZALES HEARINGS????!!!!!?????

As in my last post, everytime I think I have outrage fatigue, something else happens to get my bowels in an uproar and it’s happening all over the board.  In the science agencies, in foreign policy, in the administration of justice, it comes in twos and threes a day.  Hell, I’m still boiling mad about the Katrina debacle and that’s just almost old news except that it turns out this past week that millions of dollars of foreign donated medical assistance spoiled in the heat and moisture of New Orleans because relief agencies just let it sit on the docks and then wanted to hide and cover up their ineptness.  All this comes to light because it seems that the U.S. is leaving all those donated millions from concerned citizens of the world on the table.  See, we haven’t bothered to go pick up the checks.  And, of course, it dries up as American prestige heads toward absolute zero.

Sometimes the tree of Liberty must be watered with the blood of tyrants.  Jefferson, a revolutionary, knew of which he spoke.

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Blogblah rants and raves about politics

Randall Tobias, head of the Bush administration’s foreign aid programs, abruptly resigned Friday after his name surfaced in an investigation into a high-priced call-girl ring, said two people in a position to know the circumstances of his departure.

Tobias submitted his resignation a day after he was interviewed by ABC News for an upcoming program about an alleged prostitution service run by the so-called D.C. Madam.

ABC reported on its Web site late Friday that Tobias confirmed that he had called the Pamela Martin and Associates escort service to have women come to his condo and give him massages. More recently, Tobias told the network, he has been using a service with Central American women.

Tobias, 65, who is married, told ABC News there had been “no sex” during the women’s visits to his condo. His name was on a list of clients given to ABC by Deborah Jeane Palfrey, who owns the escort service and has been charged with running a prostitution ring in the nation’s capital.

Tobias held two titles: director of U.S. foreign assistance and administrator for the U.S. Agency for International Development. His rank was equivalent to deputy secretary of state.

Rice named Tobias to head the two programs in January 2006, and on Wednesday was at the White House, where President Bush praised his efforts coordinating global AIDS relief. Tobias had been the White House’s coordinator for global AIDS relief before taking the USAID post.

Before joining the administration, Tobias was a director and chairman of Eli Lilly and Co., the Indianapolis-based pharmaceutical company.

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Blogblah!  Republicans will want to talk about Clinton and Barney Frank again.  Y’know, I have this theory that the entire GOP platform is based on repressed sexuality.  Think about it.  Welfare Cadillac was/is about black women having sex.  There’s the obvious abortion vs. abstinence debate and the equally obvious gay marriage stuff.  How Freudian do you have to be to throw in the gun issue?  This whole militaristic society led by a strongman stuff is just measuring dicks.  The nation has been saturated with the phrase “family values” since 1998 and the Monica Lewinsky pimped up impeachment and that was just GOP repressed sexuality as far as I’m concerned.  Then you start looking at the GOP leadership.  Livingston, Speaker of the House, resigns in disgrace over an affair.  Newt Gingrich was getting hum jobs DURING THE IMPEACHMENT SCANDALS from a woman with whom he was having an affair, he recently disclosed.  Guiliani openly moves his mistress into Gracie Mansion.  Mark Foley in Florida.  The list is apparently endless.  Somehow, Clinton trumps all this to the GOP.  It’s almost like the hypocricy is what makes it OK for them.  Yes, the Republicans say, our personal lives are like Ted Haggard’s, but at least we’re hypocritical about it and preach about how everyone else should lead a better life according to Leviticus.  WTF?  Somehow, the irony of a guy who is the leader of America’s AIDS international program, who insists on abstinence as the number one option and is queasy about handing out condoms and certainly won’t let anyone mention abortion is now getting happy ending massages from a prostitution ring.  I wonder if the Central American indentured sex slaves he now uses for his massages are here legally.  This guy is a deputy secretary of state!  Can you say blackmail and spycraft boys and girls?  It’s a national security issue for someone that high up at State to be caught with their pants down.  Do we really believe there’s no health club in his neighborhood who can send over a licensed masseuse?  Let me think about it.  Uhm.  NOPE!!!  You know who else is caught up in this scandal so far?  The guy who invented the military tactic now known as “shock and awe”.    A Pentagon/think tank guru.  Duh.  Aren’t you just proud as punch with W’s ability to “pick ‘em”?  Harriet Meiers and Al “Fredo” Gonzales for the Supreme Court.  Those idiots Griffith in Arkansas and Palouse in Minnesota, the replacement U.S. Attorneys for two of the eight scandal firings, already failures.   “Brownie” can never be forgiven or forgotten.  Rumsfeld.  The Regency Law School’s star student, Monica Goodling.  Paul Bremer’s entire crew of inept ideologues that snatched defeat from the jaws of victory in Baghdad.  Renzi in AZ and Doolittle in California following Bob Ney into the slammer with Duke Cunningham.  DeLay and his Abrhamoff cronies can’t even be bribed successfully — how could they possibly be expected to be anything but failures at governance? 
Until this story, my outrage of the day was at the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta.  The Atlanta Journal reported today that 161 out of 225 scientific posts overseas have gone unfilled for a year because the scientists who’ve been selected by CDC for their merit have been held up by the White House who can’t find the scientists who dispute Global Warming or think that abortion causes breast cancer to pass their litmus tests of politics over all.  The scandal at FDA over the Plan B pill.  The Supreme Court being forced to order the EPA to follow the law.  The new head of the Consumer Product Commission is a 14 year industry lobbyist who has consistently argued for deregulation and market forces for child hazard toys. 
Anyone with competence is there by mistake, it seems, or has been forced to slink away like Colin Powell for having competence and no fucking moral courage to resist Dick Cheney, the father of all lies.
Every time I think I have outrage fatigue, this administration  does something else to get my bowels in an uproar.
Torture!  How can this be a part of official American policy?  This is incredible on a global scale.  It is surely as bad for our foreign policy objectives as the Iraq war itself.
This “Long War”, this GWOT, a unilaterally announced World War III against just whoever we pick for any old trumped up reason, the arrogance of the idea of American hegemony and American exceptionalism.  It staggers the mind.  That we have allowed these monsters to LEGALLY snoop into our phone calls, credit card use, email, library use is the greatest failure of any American generation including the “Greatest Generation’s” internment of the Japanese. 

And speaking of libraries, nothing at all  is sacred to these power mad proponents of an Imperial Presidency — they even attack freedom at the most fundamental level by restricting what can and cannot be read in a public library…this alone is outrageous.
The rise of the Euro and Pound against the dollar is no fluke because the war spending is pure inflationary spending and these crazy bastards are turning us into what Warren Buffet’s partner has called a “hasbeen” country.  The curve is downhill from here, folks.  He headed to China saying that nation has a future as well as a past.
These fundamentalist theocrats bear too strong a resemblence to the Iranian and Saudi theocracies for my own tastes.  It’s an American fascist face on the Taliban. 
I think we should sentence W to go to Walter Reed and tell every wounded American: “Mission Accomplished” and “Bring it on”.  Hoo freakin’ rah!
Today, a line officer writing in the Armed Forces Journal charged the present general staff of the military with being second rate minds with third rate educations (almost none of them speak a second language, for example) and a general lack of ability in fundamental leadership skills.  Quoting Clauswitz all  the way up to the latest counterinsurgency papers, the brave soul quite simply said everybody should have been at least as honest as Shinseki, even if they got fired, and that the bastards didn’t have the balls to tell Congress and the nation the truth.  Strong stuff.  I inferred he believes we are STILL not being told  the truth.
That fucks with my head.  Pisses me off royally.
Grrrrr.
I am going to completely hate it if Reid and Pelosi give in to the President’s veto threats. 
I have to go now.  I have a BB pistol and a lifesize photo of a certain person and I’m going to get out some of my frustration by aiming my BB pistol and firing at this effigy of a certain prominent someone.  Don’t get me wrong.  I’d prefer to get out my frustrations by joining the prosecution team at the War Crimes trial at the Hague and seeing certain someones imprisoned, perhaps on Elba, for the remainder of their lives.  It’s just not as satisfying a fantasy somehow.
   

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